it's OK

Mer,

Even if it takes an ocean of tears just by thought of saying goodbye. Take a shot. Besides, a goodbye is never painful unless you're never going to say hello again. Let the silence be your loudest scream and let happiness flow within. Just rest for a moment. It's OK. Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts. Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in the core of your being, there is pure silence, pure love. And ... it's ... just ... OK.

- MJ

Birthday Gift

If a friendship lasts longer than 7 years, psychologists say it will last a lifetime.

It was hard to reach out to you with all the ups and downs that we have. But my desire to make you smile on your birthday swept my pride. The moment that you did not answer my call made me feel uncomfortable and hopeless. Is this really the end of our friendship?

I was delighted when you called back few seconds after missing my call. Just by that, we were back to how we were. Catching-up and talking about non-sense with no sign of any hard feelings between us.

We've known each other for almost 4 years. I hope we can give justice to what psychologists say about friendship. Reminding me of the memories that we have (even those little things that i can barely recall) is a good sign. I can't thank you enough for keeping those memories somewhere in your heart. I hope you had the happiest birthday.

A Course of Setting Boundaries

As you get older you start doing things in reverse. You start cutting people out from your life. Your Christmas list becomes practically nonexistent. You don’t need to be the first in line for everything. You take less pictures because some memories are best kept in your heart and not your hard drive. And instead of looking for love, you dig for it from within.

Source: Lessons Learned in Life

Message in a Bottle for a New Beginning

I hope you fall in love with someone who always calls you back and never lets you fall asleep making you feel unwanted. I hope you fall in love with someone who holds your hand during the scary parts of horror movies and burns cookies with you while you’re both busy dancing around the kitchen. I hope you fall in love with someone who tickles you and makes you smile on hard days and on easy ones. But beyond all that I hope you fall in love with someone who will never leave you behind and who will never take you for granted. Someone who will stand by you when you’re right and stand by you when you’re wrong. Someone who has seen you at your worst and loves you still. I hope you fall in love with someone who kisses you in the rain and hugs you when you’re cold and wouldn’t have it any other way.

No Goodbyes

To my dearest friend,

I really appreciate the surprise you planned with Beans, you really made me get into it according to your plan. You're such a good accomplice! 

I know there's a lot of things going on and it's really hard to leave knowing that. I will surely miss the times we've been together. I will never forget the memories we've shared, those times that we felt each other's pain when we were both consumed with heartache. I will miss having breakfast with you each morning and the times we had gone to the grocery store. You may not know how much I appreciate each cup of coffee that you made for me because I was too lazy to express how much it means to me. I never worry about your mood swings because I learned so much from it, I learn how far my patience can go and I must thank you for that.

Thank you for listening whenever I have something to say even if most of them were non-sense, even if I have said those stories a couple of times. Thank you for everything, for allowing me to see the real you without any hesitation. 

Please remember that my absence will make no difference because I will always be here, you know that. I'm just a text or call away. And yes, there should be no goodbyes for us. Always take care, and I pray that things will get better eventually. Keep holding on! I will miss you! Love lots!

PS: Sa dami ng pictures natin together, nahirapan akong pumili ng i-a-attach ko dito.

PS ulit: Paki-sabi kay Beans na kahit na minsan corny ang jokes nya mami-miss ko sya. Tatawa yan for sure. Hahahaha

Thank You!!!!!

It is good to give thanks to the LORD.” 

It does our soul a world of good to turn from anxious thoughts and fill our days with prayerful praise; good to greet each morning with songs of thanksgiving, for such praise makes us glad. It lifts us out of gloom and replaces our sadness with cheerful songs at the “works of [His] hands” 

Dear Lord,


I sent you a prayer earlier and you responded faster than I expected. Thank you for my parents who consoled me when I was crying. I really feel so blessed to receive much love from them.

Thank you much for my father who gave me the tightest hug I needed most. I told him how sorry I was for hurting someone badly and he taught me how to make things right.

Thank you for my mother who patiently waited for me to speak up because I didn't want to talk about it when she tried to comfort me that evening. I was afraid that she will get mad but I was wrong because when I told her about it, she practically shared her thoughts about what happened.

Almighty God, thank you to the one I hurt because I did not expect that he will accept my apology wholeheartedly. And for giving me another chance to make up with him. I know it will be hard for him to forget what I did because I can never take back the words I already said and I can never change how it made him feel uncomfortable. Eventually, things will pass and YOU will heal everything with your embrace. 

Dear Lord I am really grateful because you answered my prayer.


Yours faithfully,


Mer

I'm So Sorry

Dear Lord,

I badly hurt someone I cherish so much today. I deeply hurt him more than a stabbing can cause wound to anyone. I pushed him to the edge and I even pushed him harder. He gave me a chance but I squandered the very little patience that has left to him. Although I had no intentions on hurting him the words I said made it seem like I really had one. I tried to explain things to make it clear but it only gotten worst. I understand if he wont forgive me because I have gone too far to receive forgiveness.

I really feel sorry. I know how much hurt it caused him because I feel twice the pain when I read through the messages I sent. I should have been more careful with my words, I should have read the context of my messages before I sent it to him. I know now how little mistakes can cause devastation.

I know that guys most of their time stay in their cave to think things clearly but I disrespected that fact and I took away his chance to bring back his composure. I really messed up his day and I sincerely apologize for doing so. 

Heavenly Father, I accept the consequences of what I have done. Just give me enough courage to endure everything. Please let him know that I always hope that he will be the happiest. If staying away from him is the only thing that can make it happen then I leave the rest to you.

Sincerely,

Mer