my Entreaties

I found this prayer from a friend’s blog. What a masterpiece! I was astonished by the content of this plea it really helps whenever I am in pain. I am really thankful for that someone who shared this pleads. I am able to gather myself back into pieces gradually.

Prayer for Trust

Dear Jesus, I trust in You.

In the midst of my uncertainty, I ask not for clarity but for a heart full of trust. I accept all that Your hand has allowed to come to my life now  whether it be convenient or inconvenient, predictable or unpredictable, victory or even failure.

I thank You for all that You bring to my life, all that You Have taken away and all that You have left me with.

Jesus, sweet Jesus, I trust in You. Amen.

Prayer for Contentment

Lord, I ask for the gift of contentment.

Please remove from me the desire to want more and teach me contentment in every situation.

Help me to focus on what I should do and not on what I should have.

Teach me to be grateful for everything You have given me.

And help me detach the nonessentials so that I can concentrate on what is eternal. Amen.

Prayer in Time of Sickness

Dearest Jesus, You are the Lord and Giver of Life, and yet You know how it is to be afflicted and in pain.

I come to You right now, having grown weak and infirm, and I ask for Your comfort and strength.

There is a loneliness that grips my heart because of this sickness and the suffering I go through, that I feel those who are well cannot understand. But I know that You do. I believe Your compassionate heart even now reaches out to touch me.

Thank You, my Sweetest Lord! Thank You for every wound You took that I may be healed! And I am already healed. Amen.

Prayer for God's Will in My Life

Your will is perfect, Lord.

Let it be done in my life. Give me the grace to surrender my desires so that I can be open to receive Your best for my life.

I ask, not seeking to squander Your blessings on my own pleasures, but to find fulfillment in doing Your will.

Reveal Your plans for me, Lord, so that I may obtain the future full of hope that You have promised. Amen. 

Whenever I found myself in shadows and no one seems to cast brightness upon me. I take every opportunity to utter this prayer so I can light up the brightness I have in me.

Stacie Orrico - I Promise (Official Music Video)

The first time I heard this song I thought about love. But hearing it over a couple of times altered my understanding. I was able to know the latent sense of this song; FRIENDSHIP. This is something I would like to offer to a friend whom I value much. Someone distant but never fails to send his felicitation. He maybe someone I know for a little time but the bond that we have is unrivaled. This song is basically saying that you will always be there for your friends no matter what. And I would like to impart this message to him. No matter how distant or near he is, I promise to be a friend he can count on no matter what.

Friendship without self-interest is one of the rare and beautiful things of life.. :)

Valentine’s Day: 25 years in narration

What’s good about Valentine’s Day?? Actually I really didn’t know what the significance is. Maybe I was just a bit ignorant how it feels to receive flowers, chocolates and greeting cards from someone incomparable to a friend. I maybe just used to celebrating this day as one of the ordinary days in my life. I never knew how it was until I found someone whom I wished to be with rejoicing this special day, someone who showed his efforts before he has gone far away. He is the main character of my fantasy, standing at the door holding a bouquet of flowers, chocolates, and greeting cards to bestow me. He is someone whom I wish to show my love but the situation forbids me. He is someone whom I thought will probably amend my impression about Valentine’s Day but the distance between us and the circumstances I suppose gainsay my expectations.

Though it may seem as a failure and another year added to my counting years of celebrating this day as usual, I am still hopeful for that instant to draw closer. In the meantime, I will get pleasure from the freedom I have with friends as I celebrate every special occasion that steps forward. Twenty-five years of celebrating the heart season with no less than friends is nothing to be ashamed of.

And speaking of pleasures, earlier today, as our shift hop to a new date, I welcome the season of love with a lunch date with friends. They even gave me Dutch treat of fries and float after I chaffed them XD

While I was busy writing this post (at home), that I didn’t even notice that the sun has already risen. My mother was so thoughtful for she brought something to eat to my room. Another luxurious treat I was able to benefit from today :)

I may not experience the love I be desperate to have but I am swamped with love from friends, colleagues, family, and God. Happy Valentine’s Day ♥

go go GADGETs!

I am not so in to gadgets but when I found this thing as I explore the net, my impulsive mind tells me “I want to have this!” “Go! Buy that one!” This baby has been added now to my wish list. I just don’t know when I can finally have one since I already settled my priority. It may take some time but I will surely find a way to make this thing as concrete as possible.

my CONFESSIONS

No matter how hard I insist myself that I am happy being friends with you, the desires of wanting you as my other half keeps crossing my path at one time. Though I keep warning my emotions from bursting, my hands are losing grip because of the sweet things that keeps on reminding me of you. I think I am just being haunted by my hidden thoughts. A part of me wants to say it out loud but the consequences prevent me from doing so. So I find myself writing the words than saying it vocally. Hoping that by this means I’ll be able to let my emotions break up for a while. I just wish that this hither and thither desires I have for you will soon pass off to make things less complicated. I really don’t want to lose a friend like you. But sometimes it seems that, what I don’t want to lose is the thought of having you in my life making me feel so special not an ordinary friend will do.

a cure to my INDOLENCE

It was a very lazy day; I feel like I’m not doing anything but sleep. My mother waked me by bringing my newborn nephew, Carl, in my room.  I was pleased to finally carry him this time so I woke up to fetch and carry him from my mother. I enjoyed the moment of playing with him while he was awake. This angel really likes to hear someone chatting :) by showing his smile as a response. I feel as lethargic as earlier so I laid him beside me and went back to sleep. I was awaked by his weep so I sent him back to his mother maybe he was hungry.  My long dormant was interrupted when my nephew and nieces intruded my fortress. I decided to finally get up from sleep this time. I watched my fave noontime show until somnolence crossed my being again. I saw my nieces sweeping and mopping the floor when I jerked out from sleep for a moment. I was able to compose myself this time from being asleep most of the day. I spent the rest fooling around with my nieces.

I realized that they’ll be spending the night at home; I prepared the cot downstairs where we can sleep over. Before we get to sleep Francine asked for something to eat and a glass of milk. I asked my nephew, Franz to buy some chips for snack. When he got back I prepared the snack, milk for two, and a cup of coffee me and Franz would share. I took some pictures of the food and us since we seldom have this kind of bonding time :) The three kids played the killer game, I also took a snap of them. I enjoyed watching them playing and teasing each other. 

After being worn out from playing they finally get to sleep. I had to wait for them to have a deep sleep so i can capture a snap.

My day has been so lazy but these kids alter my indolence. I really wish to see them more often. I admit they are sometimes scruffy and annoying, but I really enjoy the split second of being with them.

L.S.S of the DAY

Earlier while I was in the jeepney headed to work I heard this song playing. I can’t help myself to dance with the beat. I can even recall how cute and huggable the group was in this video. I feel so nostalgic. I miss the old times during my high school days where things were less complicated. I found myself playing this video over and over again so I ended up posting it :)

EMBARRASSING YET SO DELIGHTING

I feel so sluggish earlier; I decided to get something to drink that will probably burst out my energy. Me and my colleague went to the pantry and tried using the vending machine to get some cola. We followed the instructions clear enough but the machine kept on spitting out the bill that we were inserting. A sudden voice sang out “Baliktad!” I realized that there were three guys behind us observing what we were doing. My colleague replied “Eh, sinusunod lang namin yung instruction ah” She added that the bill we were using perhaps was just too rumpled. I asked one of them if they have a tidy bill that we can insert to the slot. One of them (Kuya Toto if I am not mistaken) was so kind enough to even offer his assistance and took the tidy bill from his fellow in exchange to our rumpled bill. He inserted the bill and finally the machine accepted it. I thanked Kuya Toto for his kind assistance. He said welcome as we walked away from them.

I was really ashamed by our ignorance in using the Vendo but I was so delighted to know that there are people who are kind enough to offer assistance during your embarrassing moments.

FOR SOMEONE WHOM I VALUE MUCH

I AM SO GRATEFUL

♥ for the sweet memories I had when we were together

♥ for bringing me to a place somewhere only the two of us know

♥ for doing things no other man has done yet

♥ for making me realize the things that I have and have not

♥ for showing me my strengths and my weaknesses

♥ for the experiences I had with you, may it be good or bad

♥ for sending me your regards no matter how near or distant you are

♥ for remembering me when you have gone far away

♥ for giving me strength out of the bad experiences we stumble upon

♥ for showing your respect in so many ways

♥ to have known someone like you

I ASK FORGIVENESS

♥ for being so grumpy

♥ if sometimes I took you for granted
♥ for not responding with your tenderness

♥ if I am emotionally disturbed

♥ if I wronged you with my initiatives
♥ if I somehow torn your fidelity
♥ if I pushed you to complication
♥ for being such a bad influence

♥ if I confused you, for I feel the same way too

♥ if I had to lurk the things that I discovered about you (the things you hid from me)

♥ for being so unfair to not let you know what I was going through

These are the things that I wish to tell you. But I guess this is not the right time to say these words to, because I am not ready yet. I know someday you will understand why I have to keep this from you. You’ll know the reasons why things have changed. Perhaps you will get exasperated with this silence. Honestly, I am uncertain if I really have to inform you about this discovery. We are just friends and not committed so why should I bother? I just hope that the silence that we have for each other will not impede with the bond that we have formed. For the reason that I am pleased to be your friend always.