No Goodbyes

To my dearest friend,

I really appreciate the surprise you planned with Beans, you really made me get into it according to your plan. You're such a good accomplice! 

I know there's a lot of things going on and it's really hard to leave knowing that. I will surely miss the times we've been together. I will never forget the memories we've shared, those times that we felt each other's pain when we were both consumed with heartache. I will miss having breakfast with you each morning and the times we had gone to the grocery store. You may not know how much I appreciate each cup of coffee that you made for me because I was too lazy to express how much it means to me. I never worry about your mood swings because I learned so much from it, I learn how far my patience can go and I must thank you for that.

Thank you for listening whenever I have something to say even if most of them were non-sense, even if I have said those stories a couple of times. Thank you for everything, for allowing me to see the real you without any hesitation. 

Please remember that my absence will make no difference because I will always be here, you know that. I'm just a text or call away. And yes, there should be no goodbyes for us. Always take care, and I pray that things will get better eventually. Keep holding on! I will miss you! Love lots!

PS: Sa dami ng pictures natin together, nahirapan akong pumili ng i-a-attach ko dito.

PS ulit: Paki-sabi kay Beans na kahit na minsan corny ang jokes nya mami-miss ko sya. Tatawa yan for sure. Hahahaha

Thank You!!!!!

It is good to give thanks to the LORD.” 

It does our soul a world of good to turn from anxious thoughts and fill our days with prayerful praise; good to greet each morning with songs of thanksgiving, for such praise makes us glad. It lifts us out of gloom and replaces our sadness with cheerful songs at the “works of [His] hands” 

Dear Lord,


I sent you a prayer earlier and you responded faster than I expected. Thank you for my parents who consoled me when I was crying. I really feel so blessed to receive much love from them.

Thank you much for my father who gave me the tightest hug I needed most. I told him how sorry I was for hurting someone badly and he taught me how to make things right.

Thank you for my mother who patiently waited for me to speak up because I didn't want to talk about it when she tried to comfort me that evening. I was afraid that she will get mad but I was wrong because when I told her about it, she practically shared her thoughts about what happened.

Almighty God, thank you to the one I hurt because I did not expect that he will accept my apology wholeheartedly. And for giving me another chance to make up with him. I know it will be hard for him to forget what I did because I can never take back the words I already said and I can never change how it made him feel uncomfortable. Eventually, things will pass and YOU will heal everything with your embrace. 

Dear Lord I am really grateful because you answered my prayer.


Yours faithfully,


Mer

I'm So Sorry

Dear Lord,

I badly hurt someone I cherish so much today. I deeply hurt him more than a stabbing can cause wound to anyone. I pushed him to the edge and I even pushed him harder. He gave me a chance but I squandered the very little patience that has left to him. Although I had no intentions on hurting him the words I said made it seem like I really had one. I tried to explain things to make it clear but it only gotten worst. I understand if he wont forgive me because I have gone too far to receive forgiveness.

I really feel sorry. I know how much hurt it caused him because I feel twice the pain when I read through the messages I sent. I should have been more careful with my words, I should have read the context of my messages before I sent it to him. I know now how little mistakes can cause devastation.

I know that guys most of their time stay in their cave to think things clearly but I disrespected that fact and I took away his chance to bring back his composure. I really messed up his day and I sincerely apologize for doing so. 

Heavenly Father, I accept the consequences of what I have done. Just give me enough courage to endure everything. Please let him know that I always hope that he will be the happiest. If staying away from him is the only thing that can make it happen then I leave the rest to you.

Sincerely,

Mer