Spending time ALONE :)

October 14, 2012

 

I was able to spend time for myself. Went early to the church and attended a mass after praying at the chapel. Lit three candles for every prayer I have as I try to feel how golden silence can become. This one thought has always been the subject of my date with God:

"Only in silence you can hear God speak to you. Only in silence can a real prayer, a heart prayer be born. Next time you start chattering, stop and feel into the silence, feel its shape, its texture, and then slowly and silently say only what really has to be said."

I admit that in silence, apart from my family and friends there is always one person I pray for.

After spending two hours of serenity at the church, I decided to give myself a treat. It's been awhile since I spent time and money for myself so I guess it's not bad to give myself some great comfort in buying a pair of shoes, new jeans, and clothes :D It's a good thing that I went out during payday because I was able to enjoy a bunch of discounts and sales. Instead of one for each item I initially planned to buy, I got two pairs of shoes (buy one take one :P), two jeans that perfectly fit me (50% off its original price), and two tops (20% off its original price) I love SALE! Buying these stuffs are not really considered as just a luxury because I really need to buy new clothes and pants these days. Since I lost weight and turned skinny most of my old goodies don't fit well anymore. 

Having this opportunity to spend time with myself alone is one of the rare things I am grateful to experience. You only have to think of yourself and you don't have to consider anyone to decide where you want to go, what you want to do, and how much you would spend :)) Though this me-time was spent for just an hour or two I really enjoyed it. Just because you are alone doesn't mean you won't be happy. Sometimes you will feel that you're the happiest having this kind of treat. I guess I can consider this as one way of loving and knowing myself more. By the way, my perks are inviting me to join them later tonight. I guess I had enough of knowing myself for today I want my weekend to be more dynamic so sige pagbigyan na though I have to travel miles to be with them I want to make it up to them because the last times that they invited me I always had an excuse.